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~It's amazing how quickly life starts to pass us by when we are having fun and getting older, many times when things get rough it seems easy enough to just quit, its amazing how fast we became such close friends.~

This year you graduate leaving me to face alone, my freshman year...until you return i shall cry nothing but a tear it's gonna be hard for me knowing you're not going to be there by my side..because as far from what i know...only you and i collide i know there was some bad things between us but i always blew them off because i never regretted anything we shared. i hope you didn't either, I'm gonna miss all those nights we would spend laughing and just hanging out, all those long talks that cheered me up when i was down. all those nights topped off my fun this year without a doubt. and if i ever needed someone to talk to i knew who that someone would be. i always knew i could look to you to make me laugh or keep a smile on my face. and all this long year i spent getting to know someone so great, now that i think about it i start to choke up because it seems almost to late, but thanks for being there in the end...I'll always know that no matter what you'll always be a friend... i have never met anyone with the personality i found in you... so on graduation day i will not sit there and say goodbye, because i expect to see you again, Graduation day is not the day i will sit there and not cry, graduation is the day i will watch my best friend begin a new chapter in her life, a chapter that tells a great deal.i don't know how to feel, I'm  so very sad to see you leave..i could never let you go..because i don't want you to face this world alone...my feelings of fear disappear over night so when you leave after your graduation night...I'll know that everything will be alright.

~*I'm going to miss seeing you every day you were always someone there for me, someone i could trust, this year here with you has flew by way to fast, please don't ever forget the people that belong in your past, i know this is going to be hard but keep me in your future, still there hanging on, keep me near your heart, where i can never be gone, i hope we stay in touch!!

~ Thanks for all the special memories i hope we still can hang out when you come back. I'm glad I've gotten to know someone so special, you are more then just a great friend and for you i will always care!! I love you!! And that comes from my heart and i mean it so much i know what it means and i know how i feel about it and you!!!

ok well last night we had the farewell dance...and it was supposed to be las vegas themed...but it was kinda gay...the DJ was a bus driver...and they played rap crap! but ya...and yes i gues i dressed up? im not sure if it would be called dressing up...but w/e...but then this morning we had graduation...and we had to dress up again...but then we had the talent show...it was HILARIOUS!!! (sp) especially brittany!!! and after the talent show we watched the movie of all of our pics...baby pic and recent pic...and then after that we ate lunch...then there was those blow-up things...like 7 of them...and music...a DJ (the same one from last nite) and then there was a balloon fight...

but towards the end...they played the song "gradutaion" by vitamin C...i think...the one thats like "and as we go on, we'll remember, all the times we've had together. and as our lives change, from wutever, we will still be friends forever" or sumthin like that...but during that song...everyone was around lauren and hugging her and stuff cuz shes moving...and i was sitting by myself...and i couldnt think about anyone/ anything but her...cuz shes moving...and i started to cry...but not that much...but cuz of how me and her are the greatest of friends and how i always wanted us to be, but when that song was playing and i was lookin at everyone around her, i couldnt help but to realize that it was all my fault that we couldnt have been better friends...I WILL MISS HER AND LOVE HER SOOO MUCH!!!!

Love,

Kelso

LAUREN I HOPE YOU LIKED YOUR CARD AND THE COLLAGE!!!

I lost my self
inside my self
For my rage had destroyed me
I don't know why I feel this Rage
So I paint a beautiful picture to hide my Rage
Is this rage any ones fault for suffacating me in my life
Could be
My rage is my own nightmare suffacating
With my failers
And how my own dreams Fail me in my daily life
For failer is a word I know to well!!!!!

I Love you so much,
You are my life,
You are my one and only.

I love you so much,
If only you knew,
If only you cared.

I love you so much,
I would die without you,
I would be lost without you.

I love you so much,
If only you knew,
If only you cared.

I love you so much,
I'd be dead if it werent for you,
I'd be gone if it werent for you.

I love you so much,
If only you knew,
If only you cared.

Oh how i love you.